PREGNANT!!!!!! GIFT or DISASTER??

Hye there.. This is my 1st time having a blog.. Let me introduce myself.. My name is Asyikin..n i am 28 years old.. My 1st pregnancy was 10 years ago.. Yes.. I am young still study in a college.. When i 1st know i was pregnant.. I feel like killing myself.. Thinking about my mom.. My relatives.. What would they say?? The boy who supposed to be responsible.. Left me.. Just like that.. His promises.. His loyalty.. Dissapeared.. I have tried to abort the baby.. But it is not working.. I choose to run away.. But my mom already know.. She brought me tona private clinic..but unfortunaely.. The pregnancy is almost 6 months.. I might not survive if i do the abortion.. So my mom decided to kept baby n raise her.. When the time has come.. I got a cute baby gal..n named her NUR QISTINA MELLYSA.. I raise her until now.. She is 9.. I met a man.. A matured man.. Love me n accept me with all his heart.. He is now my lovely husband.. Then i have 3 more kids with him.. Yes.. Pregnant is disaster if u r not married..but it is a gift when u r legally married..